Last weekend, I got back in touch with a long-lost cousin whom I've never met since we finished primary school. There was a lot of catching up to be done, although things were very much awkward at first as the only thing we had in common were the memories of our childhood days together.
As our little 'jejak kasih' program unfolded, I couldn't help but ask her the question.
'The boys. Are they yours?'
'Yes, of course. Eh. You didn't know?'
You bet I didn't. My cousin is now a single mother with two beautiful sons. I wasn't taken aback with the fact that she got married at the age of 18. I wasn't offended because I didn't know all these while. I was a little pissed when I found out that the jerk she married just went missing a couple of years back and I felt sorry for her and company.
But what really knocked my senses into me, was how she had managed to hold the edges and keep it together after all that she'd been through. I asked myself there and then, how would I fair in a situation like that?
People my age are generally regarded as 'young adults' and, as the term shows, we are expected to think, speak and act the way adults do. They don't give in to difficult times; they try to make the best out of it, be it having to work longer working hours or juggling two jobs at once. They are in total control of their emotions when things go bad somewhere(sparks may fly once in a while, but nobody's perfect). They will eventually turn out winners against life's challenging journey, and successfully pave a clear path for not only their future, but for their children as well.
I must admit, I still feel like I'm stuck in my teenage years. That transition of maturity and character seems to have not kicked in at full throttle, although the age suggests otherwise.
Do I fear for my future? Sometimes. Well, '30% sometimes'. The other 70%? Yours truly is usually spotted with friends, enjoying life and 'living it to the fullest' (quote here as the term is used to reflect irony).
On the verge of adulthood? Not quite. The time will come(hopefully soon) but right now, I'm at the peak of 'kid'ulthood.
As our little 'jejak kasih' program unfolded, I couldn't help but ask her the question.
'The boys. Are they yours?'
'Yes, of course. Eh. You didn't know?'
You bet I didn't. My cousin is now a single mother with two beautiful sons. I wasn't taken aback with the fact that she got married at the age of 18. I wasn't offended because I didn't know all these while. I was a little pissed when I found out that the jerk she married just went missing a couple of years back and I felt sorry for her and company.
But what really knocked my senses into me, was how she had managed to hold the edges and keep it together after all that she'd been through. I asked myself there and then, how would I fair in a situation like that?
People my age are generally regarded as 'young adults' and, as the term shows, we are expected to think, speak and act the way adults do. They don't give in to difficult times; they try to make the best out of it, be it having to work longer working hours or juggling two jobs at once. They are in total control of their emotions when things go bad somewhere(sparks may fly once in a while, but nobody's perfect). They will eventually turn out winners against life's challenging journey, and successfully pave a clear path for not only their future, but for their children as well.
I must admit, I still feel like I'm stuck in my teenage years. That transition of maturity and character seems to have not kicked in at full throttle, although the age suggests otherwise.
Do I fear for my future? Sometimes. Well, '30% sometimes'. The other 70%? Yours truly is usually spotted with friends, enjoying life and 'living it to the fullest' (quote here as the term is used to reflect irony).
On the verge of adulthood? Not quite. The time will come(hopefully soon) but right now, I'm at the peak of 'kid'ulthood.
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